Sunday, December 19, 2021
Friday, December 10, 2021
ME?!? I ALREADY AM HUMBLE!!!!!!
Where in my life am I being called to practice more humility?
Friday, December 3, 2021
Advent Stations - The Third Station: The Angelic Announcement, from The Magnificat© Advent Companion 2021
Third Station – The Angelic Announcement to Manoah and
His Wife
There was a certain man from Zorah, of the clan of the Danites, whose name was Manoah. His wife was barren and had borne no children. An angel of the Lord appeared to the woman and said to her, “Though you are barren and have no children, yet you will conceive and bear a son. Now, then, be careful to take no wine or strong drink and to eat nothing unclean. As for the son you will conceive and bear, no razor shall touch his head, for this boy is to be consecrated to God from the womb. It is he who will begin the deliverance of Israel from the power of the Philistines.”
The woman went and told her husband, “A man of God came to me; he had the appearance of an angel of God, terrible indeed. I did not ask him where he came from, nor did he tell me his name. But he said to me, ‘You will be with child and will bear a son. So take neither wine nor strong drink, and eat nothing unclean. For the boy shall be consecrated to God from the womb, until the day of his death.’”
The Lord prepared the way, moment by moment, for the coming of the Messiah, in “the fullness of time” (Gal 4:4). Manoah and his wife, as well as Zechariah and Elizabeth, reveal that God can bring life out of apparent lifelessness – human weakness and insufficiency are not obstacles to the power of His promises. The strength of Samson foretells the even greater strength of Jesus, and the preaching of John the Baptist sets the stage for the Word himself to speak. Samson used his strength to defeat his physical captors, in one time and one place. John the Baptist preached a baptism of repentance and preparation, but one that did not itself take away sin. Jesus Christ, into Whom we are baptized, destroys the ultimate captor in every age – sin and death. Jesus bears salvation in His very self. In the third Advent station we glorify God, infinite and all-powerful, Who became small and weak that we might be strong.
Prayer
All-powerful Father, you prove over and over again that
human insufficiency, human barrenness, will not stand in the way of your plan.
You reveal to us the source of true strength, true power: Jesus, the Savior, Give
us the grace to remain firmly united to Him, never seeking the solutions to our
problems outside of His love. We desire to live every day of our life devoted
to Him. May sin and the fear of death never bind us, never keep us from the
freedom you promise. And may the grace of our baptism flower into the life of
glory with You and all the saints. We ask this through Christ our merciful
Lord. Amen.
Another great prayer I need to pray every hour of every day from Loyola Press
Jesus, help me to seek others who inspire and promote conversation and action inspired by the Good News, but also allow me to understand those people who do not support my personal beliefs and help those who struggle to believe themselves.
Wednesday, December 1, 2021
The LORD is my Shepherd - Living a Full Life from Loyola Press
God, help me to offer You prayers of gratitude for the beautiful life You have gifted me instead of consuming our conversations with prayers of want.
Tuesday, November 30, 2021
Advent Stations - Second Station - from The Magnificat© Advent Companion 2021
The Covenant Begins
But it is not that the word of God has failed. For not all who are of Israel are Israel, nor are they all children of Abraham because they are his descendants; but “It is through Isaac that descendants shall bear your name.” This means that it is not the children of the flesh who are the children of God, but the children of the promise are counted as descendants. For this is the wording of the promise, “About this time I shall return and Sarah will have a son.”
Prayer: Almighty
God, Lord of all life: You fulfilled the longing of Abraham and Sarah, blessing
them with new life. You revealed Your Name to their descendants, making of them
a people to be Your own. By sending Your own Son to become man, You gave us the
One with the Name above every other name, the great and powerful Name which
saves. May all people, by joining in the worship of Your holy Church, come to
know and revere the Name of Jesus and receive all that You have promised. We
ask this in union with the Word made flesh. Amen.
Who to Thy tribes on Sinai’s height
In ancient times did give the Law
In cloud and majesty and awe.
Rejoice, rejoice!
Emanuel shall come to thee, O Israel.
Monday, November 29, 2021
Sunday, November 28, 2021
Advent Stations - First Station - from The Magnificat© Advent Companion 2021
Then God said: 'Let us make man in our image, after our likeness. Let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, the birds of the air, and the cattle, and over all the wild animals and all the creatures that crawl on the ground.'
God created man in His image; in the divine image He created him; male and female He created them.
God blessed them, saying: 'Be fertile and multiply; fill the earth and subdue it. Have dominion over the fish of the sea, the birds of the ari, and all the living things that move on the earth.'
Meditation: Creation is something only God can do. no other being, not even the highest angel, can bring something out of nothing. God created the world and crowned it with human live out of His own infinite goodness; He was not looking to acquire something but only to give something: His life, his beatitude, his love. Our first parents, Adam and Eve, believed the devil's lie and turned away from the One Who already wanted them to be 'like gods', and the One Who had made them in his own image. An out of fear and shame they hid from the Very One Who forgives, the One Who says, 'Behold, I make all things new.' But God writes straight with crooked lines: 'O truly necessary sin of Adam, destroyed completely by the Death of Christ! O happy fault that earned so great, so glorious a Redeemer!' (Easter Exsultet). This first Advent station directs us to glorify God for the wonderful gift of existence, and even more so for our redemption, for we are made new by Jesus Christ, the new Adam, born of Mary, the new Eve.
New Testament Scripture - Revelation 21:1-5
Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth. the former heaven and the former earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. I also saw the holy city, a new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, 'Behold, God's dwelling is with the human race. He will dwell with them and they will be His people and God Himself will always be with them [as their God]. He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there shall be no more death or mourning, wailing or pain. [for] the old order has passed away.'
The One who sat on the throne said, 'Behold, I make all things new.' Then He said, 'Write these words down, for they are trustworthy and true.'
Prayer: Heavenly Father, when Your Son became Man, you mad it possible for us to enjoy a destiny even greater that the earthly paradise, for you call us to eternal life with you in heaven as your sons and daughters. May we always stay free from discouragement and shame by remaining close to You. We pray especially that husbands and wives, and all who are preparing for marriage, will persevere in their Christian vocation to become and raise saints together. Give them the grace to manifest to the world the love between Christ and Church. And may we all persevere in Your grace so that we will reach our eternal home, our eternal family with the blessed in heaven. We ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.
Come peacefully, Thy people set aright,
Sunday, November 14, 2021
Recipe #7: First Snow of the Season Chili
At the prodding of my beautiful wife, and instead of the spaghetti I so wanted to make, allow me to present another version of one of our favorite winter classics.
Into the 7 quart Crock Pot, go:
Thursday, November 11, 2021
Tuesday, November 2, 2021
Saturday, October 30, 2021
PAUL BUNYON STAYS IN EAST LANSING!
Monday, October 25, 2021
What Christmas is All About - A Charlie Brown Christmas (1965)
Do you not just love little Linus here??
Friday, October 8, 2021
October 1993
Watching Michigan at Wisconsin from 30 October 1993, and I couldn't remember the name of the Michigan quarterback in that game (Todd Collins). I began thinking back on what was going on in my life back then...
I think I had removed myself from television altogether by this point, so I surely wasn't watching too many games. I remember a conversation with my brother at about that time in my life, he told me that it was ok to watch college football - God told him so. Well, almost 30 years later, I am still taking that advice.
Saturday, September 25, 2021
Recipe #4: Gameday Chili
It has been a while since we had any version of chili in the Baldner home; with to-day's drippy 50's and college football the agenda, I thought it high time. The local Polly Market has these pork 'tenderloins' marked down to $2.49 a pound, but they're really two loins together mushed inside the plastic packaging to make it look like a tenderloin you could slice into chops, etc. I quartered lengthwise one of the loins and then diced it into bite size chunks, then marinated it over night in soy sauce and garlic. Oh how those two enhance the flavor of my favorite cut of protein! The last of our sweet bell peppers and a few slices of homegrown chilis round out this comfort food favorite.
To-day's ingredients:
Wednesday, September 15, 2021
Wednesday, September 8, 2021
Lincoln Logs better than Legos
My neighbor is playing Jimmi Hendrix really loudly and that is an anomaly around here (the loud part, Hendrix not withstanding). I have been coming up with topics to write about of late and have not set down and done anything about it. Shame on me. It is high time.
Some folks in the neighborhood were selling Lincoln Logs for $5 and it triggered memories aplenty. I remember making cabins with windows and a sturdy green-planked roof with those - I loved how easily they would stack and fit together. These days, as I am morbidly obese and infirm, I only watch YouTube videos of Dave and Brooke doing this for real - they actually live in the homes they build - and long for the freedom and gonads to do just that.
We have been blessed with hummingbirds galore these past few weeks, all frolicking around and drinking from our lone feeder. Male chasing male, female scolding female, one male doing the solo pirate mating dance, OH, we are seldom without our small winged chattering friends - praise be to God the Creator of all that is beautiful!
Earlier this afternoon I had my second follow-up visit with the wound and trauma folks at St Joseph in Ann Arbor. I received high marks for the daily care (thank you, Monica ;-) and for the healing progress. No more visits are necessary, they say; they do want to see a photo of the wound in two weeks. I am encouraged by the progress, and know that I must do my part to reduce the swelling in both legs.
I deposited two pounds of moth balls under our home near the bedroom, in hopes of repelling the obnoxiously loud rodent that frequents there. The naphthalene seems to have kept them out from under the bedroom, but I still hear them northward - under the second bedroom. I will order more come payday, and we will see if they are totally repelled. I have no idea what they (he/she/it) are doing, but it sounds like a morse code ticker immediately under the house. Obnoxious at 2:30 am, when I am typically trying to discern whether Lieutenant Kendrick is showing any signs of remorse while perguring himself.
Sweetie is with Pops tonight; I have uploaded the documents requested to apply for financial aid for my recent three day 55k hospital bill. God, please provide, in Your mercy.
I have been so blessed to be able to pray daily (most days) the rosary, asking for intercession for all our family, friends, and neighbors. God is good - and I know He hears our prayers.
Monday, July 19, 2021
Friday, July 16, 2021
Friday, July 9, 2021
Friday the 9th
Saturday, July 3, 2021
Saturday, June 26, 2021
Friday, June 25, 2021
Monday, June 21, 2021
Father's Day Stuffed Pork Loin
I was blessed to be able to share this meal with mom and dad and my second favorite sister, who all live in Westland. It turned out sooo good, God be praised, and we all ate well.
Cook the bacon |
Add the mushrooms and onion |
Add the herbs and spinach until it wilts. Remove from the fire and add cream cheese. |
Butterfly the loin, cover it with plastic wrap, and beat it with the ugly stick |
Smear on the stuffing; roll it and tie it up. An alternative is to wrap the loin in bacon slices. Mmm- mmmmm |
You want the center to get up to 145 F before you take it off the grill; and then let it rest. I'd say it took overall about an hour, with indirect heat, and I used apple smoking chips for flavor. |
Thank You, Father, for providing us good food to share yestreday; we are so blessed!
Sunday, June 13, 2021
A bit of reminiscing, as I put the finishing touches on Pops birthday tune...
Moni and I would do the prep work for the big family get-togethers at the lake back when we lived there; and then the folks would start showing up. When the Sanderson vehicle arrived, I would wait to see Brett Michael jump out and run full speed toward me. I'd go toward him then drop to my knees when we were close. He'd jump full speed into my arms. 'I love you little mister' I'd say; he'd reply 'I love you big mister' (ala Veggie Tales :-)
Thank you, Father, for those times ...
Just a quick post of what's been going on...
We are thankful we were able to stock up on our plant food, suet, and safflower seeds for the birds God blesses us with. The House Sparrow babies are getting large and I am hoping to catch them fly the coop to-day, if it pleases the LORD. We have paint ready for the deck and planter boxes, and the rearranging of the shade sale will be forthcoming. Burgers and dogs on the grill later to-day, hoping for a strong showing from my final starting pitcher facing the Tigers. Moni got some cute little red potatoes so maybe our first salad of the summer later as well. I am roughly halfway through That Hideous Strength and the plot is indeed beginning to thicken. Linda Ronstadt's biography is next.
The weed killer from several years ago I've decided is no good, so we bought a fresh batch. For the myriad of poison ivy et al that have all but choked out our beautiful dappled willows.
I took a Fisherman's Friends tune and turned it into a birthday song for Pops about his Lakehouse and the blessing it has been to four generations now.
I found a good pizza dough variation that gives a bit more air to the crust, and I will try it next time in my 'Detroit style' za.
Forgive us, LORD, when we laugh like Abram and Sarai, at what You plan to do. Give us the grace to trust in You, Your Word, and Your Spirit as He guides us in all ways. Thank You for Your love, mercy, and grace. We surrender all to You; we give You dominion over all our relationships and comings and goings. In the Name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; amen.
Saturday, June 12, 2021
God's Well-tended Flock
From Loyola Press; today's retreat
https://www.loyolapress.com/retreats/gods-well-tended-flock/?utm_source=Newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_content=Your+3-Minute+Retreat+for++TODAY&utm_campaign=3-Minute+Retreat+Master+Template&vgo_ee=s7JCAbQkz9eBQRKOEJ1%2FewA3SuMkJhmkGexv49sZvNU%3D
Jesus, the Good Shepherd, leads us safely to the Father. With so many voices vying for our attention, hearing God's voice can be a challenge. We see Jesus' obedience to his parents, his faithfulness to the Ten Commandments, and his acceptance of his Father's will. Jesus leads us on a path to salvation. When we follow Jesus, we come to know more fully God's love for us. This, in turn, frees us to be more like Jesus.
In my day-to-day life what voices compete with the voice of Jesus the Good Shepherd?
How can I respond to those other voices?
(Speak to Jesus, using this prayer or one of your own.)
Good Shepherd of my life, lead me from death into life.
Amen.
Thursday, June 10, 2021
From my daily Loyola Press retreat: https://www.loyolapress.com/retreats/celebrating-eucharist/?utm_source=Newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_content=Your+3-Minute+Retreat+for++TODAY&utm_campaign=3-Minute+Retreat+Master+Template&vgo_ee=s7JCAbQkz9eBQRKOEJ1%2FewA3SuMkJhmkGexv49sZvNU%3D
A Reflection by Pope Francis
It is not creativity, however pastoral it may be, or meetings or planning that ensures our fruitfulness, even if these are greatly helpful. But what ensures our fruitfulness is our being faithful to Jesus, who says insistently: “Abide in me and I in you” (John 15:4). And we know well what that means: to contemplate him, to worship him, to embrace him, in our daily encounter with him in the Eucharist, in our life of prayer, in our moments of adoration; it means to recognize him present and to embrace him in those most in need. “Being with” Christ does not mean isolating ourselves from others. Rather, it is a “being with” in order to go forth and encounter others.
Pope Francis
Pope Francis is the first Jesuit Pope, the first pope from the Americas, and his papacy is defined by his emphasis on mercy, service, and humility.
Wednesday, June 9, 2021
Friday, May 28, 2021
0859 Plop down in the chair, out of breath. I do have my mc coffee though. It is raining and 44 degrees. LORD, let me remember Who I serve and Who made me to be who I am, and the reason I am who I am. Thank You.
0915 Nothing urgently pressing for this morning, and the boss isn't here. I will play KISS loudly.
0916 I spoke too soon. I must play KISS not-so-loudly :)
0940 Had to pee
1015 I'm falling back into old habits. I have no web connection
1034 I am watching live cam streams from the ISS over North Atlantic
1155 Now I have The Reluctant Stowaway playing in the background
1410 Now listening to David Anders live on EWTN
1634 Now Mary Ann by Fisherman's Friends
Thursday, May 27, 2021
Friday, May 21, 2021
Wednesday, May 19, 2021
Bible Studies with Dave - John Mark
Monday, May 17, 2021
Friday, May 14, 2021
Friday, April 30, 2021
Friday
Interesting morning so far... woke up early and shared some conversation with my sweetie before braving the 42 degree windy rain Friday morning commute. Weird dreams for both of us, but mine I think were due to the Buddy's pizza I had on the brain as I drifted off last night.
Getting close to end of day and it has been a pretty crazy Friday.
Thursday, April 29, 2021
In the absence of Survivor, our LORD took me on a wonderful adventure
I've been going through a time of spiritual uneasiness, with many contributing factors. I will save the discussion of those factors and their effects for another post. To-day at work I had to stop what I was doing a couple of times to ask for the grace to continue. I heard it over and over: 'You have no idea what I have in store for you.'
God is good, and He knows exactly what I need, and when I need it - praise His name!
I was mindlessly driving home after five of the clock (not unlike the time I entered into a non-binding union with the lady from Downriver whose suv I sent spinning when she blew through the stop sign at Strawberry Lake Rd and Hamburg Rd) when there appeared a young man walking northward on Whitmore Lake Road right before Wynans. I passed him heading home southward; judging by the expression on his face, he didn't seem in discomfort or distress, but his pace was hurried and deliberate. Definitely not an evening power walk though, so my spirit was troubled. I only managed to get a quarter mile or so past before I turned around and headed back north to offer a ride. He was still walking on the right side of the road, and the guy behind me was turning left, so I was comfortable slowing, and then with the window down: 'Can I give you a ride somewhere?'
My appearance seemed to startle him, but he quite anxiously told me he was going south, 'anywhere south'. I said 'Well get in', not discerning yet that he wasn't walking south. I think he was blessed to be able to vent; about a divorce and property lost and violence and drinking - before it clicked in my pea brain that we were headed north. I told him this, and he mumbled something about a gps and stupid phone and we did a little hoorahing at the Lee Road roundabout and at long last accessed the ramp to US-23 south. (If you are not familiar with the Lee Road roundabout, you are most probably not from Livingston County, and that is all there is to it).
I am not in the least bit uncomfortable picking up strangers ion my vehicle and helping them get closer to their destination. In fact, a couple years ago I picked up a kid hitching at that same roundabout; he was headed to Ann Arbor to panhandle on the highway. To-day, though, Will was headed down to Illinois to spend some time with his brother and clear his head of recent events. I knew I couldn't have gotten him all that way, but I wanted to put at least a good bit of scenery in his rear view before dark. We chatted and shared stories and the drive to Napoleon in Ohio went pretty quick. I bought him a quick burger, game him my cross and a couple bucks for the travels and he texted me so I'd have his number.
Nice kid, I wish him all the best; I have added him to my morning prayer list.
The drive home was uneventful. In fact, from the State line to Ann Arbor, I passed very few vehicles. As I neared the now familiar territory, I thought of Saline Rd Buddy's only briefly - once the cold sweats past I was fine into the last quarter hour of my three hour journey.
I have never every given someone a ride and regretted it. The most rewarding ones are when I go out of the way to help someone get somewhere. I know what it's like, as I told Will, to be stuck somewhere and need a lift, or a tow, or a hand out of a snowbank. I thank our Father in heaven for the chance (that I could have very easily missed) to pay it forward just a bit.
Sunday, April 11, 2021
Friday, April 9, 2021
a rhyme
covid covid kiss my ass
take your fearmongering and facemasks and shove them up your ass
biden and all you stupid fucks supporting them kiss my ass
take your government control and freebies and shove them up your ass
Thursday, April 8, 2021
Wednesday, March 24, 2021
catch the spirit
We sang this song with the radio (we had no piped in satellite music back then - it was an actual plugged in device that picked up electronic signals via frequency modulation and converted it into Rush; and Styx, and The Police, and The Cars, and The Who, and Led Zeppelin, and Cheap Trick and Kiss :-) what you say about this company is what you say about society.
Wednesday, March 17, 2021
Saturday, March 13, 2021
From St. Ignatius:
Take, Lord, and receive all my liberty, my memory, my understanding, and my entire will, all that I have and possess. Thou hast given all to me. To Thee, O lord, I return it. All is Thine, dispose of it wholly according to Thy will. Give me Thy love and Thy grace, for this is sufficient for me.
Thursday, March 11, 2021
Wednesday, March 10, 2021
—Excerpted from "Six Characteristics of Ignatian Courage" by Lisa Kelly
Courage is birthed in encounter with the other.
The things we do to put ourselves out there and get recognition for ourselves are at best gutsy; only our reputation and ego are on the line. But when we move beyond our comfort zone of individualism to encounter another, seeing the needs of others and realizing we have the potential to sustain them in some way, true courage is born.
Saturday, March 6, 2021
Buddy's
Best pizza in the universe.
Fast forward to 6MARCH2021, in the thick of the chinavirus scare... we were shopping at Ollies in Ypsi this morning and I noticed we were done by 10:30 on a Saturday. I saw we only needed a half hour to kill, so we made our way over to the Ann Arbor Buddy's and ordered one to go. Large Super is now called 8 square 6 Mile. Whatever you call it, oh my buds are spewing forth saliva at the thought! So many places serving pizza in 2021: traditional, 'NY style', round, square, 'deep dish', 'Detroit style', cheese crust, carmelised cheese, blah blah blah. There is no pie comparable to Buddy's. Period. (Or, we used to say 'word'.)
Original - tastes like it did when friends and I used to hang out on Plymouth Road at the Livonia Buddy's in the early 90's, and not at all unlike the ones Dad used to bring home from Conant and 6 when we were little tykes in the early 70's.
Ollies was fun with my bride, but thank you to Buddy's for making our trip to Washtenaw County a 10+ on this cool sunny spring day!
Sunday, February 28, 2021
Arts and Faith: Second Sunday of Lent, Cycle B
Friday, February 26, 2021
Friday, February 12, 2021
Johnny Cash Reads The Bible: John Chapter 17
Wednesday, January 20, 2021
Tuesday, January 19, 2021
Wednesday, January 13, 2021
Recipe # 217: Chicken Alfredo Lower Michigan Style
Wednesday night, no Survivor, and I wanted to try something new in the kitchen. I had some boneless chicken fingers ready in the fridge, and a half pint of mushrooms screaming 'EAT US!'.
1.5# 3” boneless chicken cutlets
2 tbs EVOO
1 small white onion rough chopped
seasoned with garlic power, ground black pepper, and garden herbs
½ c butter
1 ½ cups heavy whip cream
2 tbs minced garlic
8 oz sliced mushrooms
¼ tsp ground pepper
2 cups Parmesan cheese
4 oz wheat linquine
2 quart water for boiling.
I cooked the seasoned chicken in my favorite T-fal skillet until they were all 150+ and set them aside.
I started the noodles – these only need 7 minutes at a roll for al dente.
Next, in my Cooks Essentials stainless 12 inch pan, I started the sauce: first the butter and cream until the butter melted, along with the sliced mushrooms and garlic. I added a bit of ground pepper here as well.
A couple minutes on a medium fire and then I added the Parmesan cheese. This, I must add, made the dish taste a bit more salty than we would have liked; as I used the processed Parmesan you sprinkle on spaghetti.
I then added the cooked chicken and let it all simmer for a couple minutes, until the chicken was good and hot again.
Over the noodles, this chicken and sauce mixture is true comfort food; desirous on this the 13th of January in mid-latitudes Northern hemisphere. I am headed back for a second low-fat, low-carb, low salt bowl; I am only sorry I took no photos.
May our LORD bless you and keep you steadfast in His peace and joy; alleluia!
Monday, January 4, 2021
Musings on the possible thoughts of Judas Iscariot, based on the text of Sacred Scripture's Gospel of St Matthew.
More teaching, more stories, more parable, more teaching, foolish virgins, bury the talent, sheep and goats, …
At Bethany, what a waste of resources!
I will use my talents to serve the Priests. 'What would you give me if I hand Him over to you?'
The price of a slave.
I will bide my time.
Evening at the Passover meal.'One of you will betray me.'
Might He possibly know? Have I been spied upon and found out?!?
'Surely it is not I, Lord?, surely it is not I?' they all repeat.
'The one who has dipped his hand into the dish with me is the one...'
…?
To appear chaste: 'Surely it is not I, Rabbi?'
'You have said so.'
…
'You have said so'?? I 'have said so'?? No I haven't really said so; I was merely asking, not unlike all the others...
And now He appears almost kingly, priestly; yet still with great humility. He blesses the bread, breaks it, and offers it to each of us: 'Take and eat, this is my body.'
'This is my body'?? What would Moses, or the priests have to say about such verbiage during this sacred meal?? Does He not blaspheme?!? What can it mean??
And yet, still He continues with the chalice:'Drink from it, all of you, for this is my blood of the covenant, which will be shed on behalf of many for the forgiveness of sins. I tell you from now on I shall not drink this fruit of the vine until the day when I drink it with you new in the kingdom of my Father.'
FFS can we just sing a hymn and be done?!?Nobody knows what He is talking about, and some are already beginning to nod off!
Finally, the Meal is finished, and we head toward the Mount of Olives.
Yet He continues this incessant prophetic babbling: 'This night all of you will have your faith in me shaken, for it is written:
“I will strike the shepherd, and the sheep of the flock will be dispersed”;
but after I have been raised up, I shall go before you to Galilee.'
Thinking back, I do believe that my faith has been shaken for some time now...
But hoi! Hear Peter: 'Though all may have their faith in you shaken, mine will never be.'
Bumbling arrogant fisherman: 'Mine will never be'!
Ha, and His reply? 'Amen, I say to you, this very night before the cock crows, you will deny Me three times.'
Still holding on to his zeal and fidelity, Peter retorts, 'Even though I should have to die with You, I will not deny You.'
'Nor I, Lord.', 'Nor I, Lord.' echo the rest (who aren't yet sleeping)...
The master went on with the others to Gethsemane, I quietly left and found a small angry crowd gathering outside of the temple. The chief priests and elders were there reminding the fake witnesses what to say, and passing out clubs. At the appointed time, I led the throng back to Gethsemane, looking for the One I was to betray with a kiss.
There He is: 'Hail, Rabbi!'; and then the kiss.
There was no affection in my kiss, although, somehow, I wanted there to be.
His next words haunted me afterward – not just the words, but the manner in which they were spoken: with a knowing peace that passes all understanding: 'Friend, do what you have come for.'
I did not have time then to mull on any of this: at this point there was a brief skirmish, and those with clubs and torches laid hands on Him. In response, one of His faithful companions drew a sword, and struck the high priest's servant, cutting off his ear.
Again, His reply was baffling: 'Put your sword back into its sheath, for all who take the sword will perish by the sword. Do you not think that I cannot call upon my Father and He will not provide me at this moment with more than twelve legions of angels? But then how would the scriptures be fulfilled which say that it must come to pass in this way?'
'Twelve legions of angels'? Who could ever claim this type of authority?
…
Have I made a mistake??
But He continued, ' Have you come out as against a robber, with swords and clubs to seize Me? Day after day I sat teaching in the temple area, yet you did not arrest Me. But all this has come to pass that the writings of the prophets may be fulfilled.'
We all forsook Him then. We all ran and hid – some far, some not so far; some fearful of local jurisdictions and temporal retribution, but others, mainly myself, now fearful of having committed far worse transgression: betrayal of the Son of God.
He was sent to Caiaphas, where more false witnesses accused Him.
Why did they need false witnesses?
Surely this Man has committed grievous blasphemy and deserves death!! Surely!!!
(Though it would ease my conscience, but I begin to think it may not be true.)
He was abused, and did not retort. He was jeered and slapped and punched and spit upon... must it be this way?
In the morning, the entire council convened one last time with one purpose: to make sure this Man was condemned to death.
…
My heart is heavy, and I cannot bear it. In His last words to me, He called me 'friend'. Knowing my purpose, and knowing His plight, still He called me 'friend'.
Even then.
My heart is heavy, and I cannot bear it. Could I ever make recompense? Could I ever un-do what I have done?!?
How could I make recompense?!? How might I repent??
…
Perhaps I will find the chief priests and elders, and return their money; … and my heart will not have this guilt to bear. My heart will not be heavy, even though I know I still have played a major part in this Man's demise. The price of a slave will be returned, and I will no longer be their slave!
I will no longer cry out inside begging for forgiveness. Yes...
'I have sinned in betraying innocent blood'
'What is that to us? Look to it yourself.'
I probably could have predicted that. They care not, as long as this Man is done away with.
I tossed the bag of silver into the temple and left. But the sorrow and grief remain – there is no solace, there is no repose.
What have I done?!?
There is no solace, there is no repose.
My heart is heavy, and I cannot bear it...
Saturday, January 2, 2021
Friday, January 1, 2021
Recipe # 3: New Years Backstrap
This dish is made possible by my buddy Doug's venison and a variation on a recipe from Malcolm Reed (https://howtobbqright.com/).
1 # thick sliced bacon
1 venison backstrap
1/3 of a brick of cream cheese
1/2 of a small white onion diced
1/2 of a green pepper diced
4 oz mushroom diced
tbs dried parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
I started by adding the vegetables and herbs to the softened cream cheese and combining well. With a sharp knife I butterflied the loin making a pocket for the stuffing.
The cream cheese mixture goes in the pocket, and then the bacon wraps up the meat into a nice package.
Thank You, Father, for another wonderful meal. Thank You for always providing more than we could ever need - You are indeed benevolent! All glory and honor and praise to You - eternal Father, Son, and Spirit!